Sasha Smith
Branches (elegy for Lavinia)
we will grow back into trees in better days,
my brothers and I
a funeral orchard
for you to pluck us again and again and again
but still not ripe enough
how could i be all you ever wanted
and still disappoint you?
I ate the lies you planted in my throat
and they cut out the rot
I will live in a body that does not bleed
these branches
will grow blossoms
that wave in the wind,
and no one will take these flowers
not even the winter
home is not a single place
it’s twilight
and you’ve crossed an ocean just to feel
homesick
an imitation of home
built in your back garden
blow up paddling pools and sparklers
to build a road back to you
we eat burgers and potato faces
toast s'mores and tealights
on the tips of
our lighters
dusk forges a bond between us
leaving cannot break
the darkness drowns
our existence in the reflection
of the setting sun
floating on by
cut up opheliac flowers
hearts laid bare
here is to burning
to light the way home
lavender
i’ve never seen a ghost
but i imagine they should smell of lavender
like falling asleep forever
i miss London and the life i built there
the cram of chaotic busy
lives pushed against each other
i know that somewhere out there
is a lavender ghost impression of me
riding the tube
and she’s happy
I use my poetry to explore themes of the female body and our ideas of what home is, and what it means to us. The first poem ‘Branches’ explores the character of Lavinia from Shakespeare’s ‘Titus Andronicus’ and the torture she is put through by the men in her life. My second poem ‘home is not a single place’ explores one of my favourite memories of a university friend who came from America, and hosted a 4th July party to share her culture with us. My last poem, ‘lavender’ explores the feelings of homesickness I’ve been feeling lately for the life I lived at university and living in London.
Written by Sasha Smith
Sasha is a 22 year old writer from South Wales who likes buying books that she'll never get around to reading and is known for wearing the orange velvet scarf she stole from her mum. You can catch up with her poetry at @sashayawaypoetry on instagram.