Hannah Elizabeth Cassidy

It comes in waves; slowly fades

In silence, I regain my strength 

Shards of glass pierce my face 

Crooked back breaks under the weight -

Got drunk again, swallow bile

Just my way of killing time 

I don't belong here

My skin don't seem to fit 

Looking out my dull eye 

Wondering when I'll get mine 

Lord knows, I fucking try

But I never quite get it right

Thick disease clouds my mind 

All the spiders crawling up inside 

I don't belong here

My skin don't seem to fit 

Everything feels the same 

For what I once loved; I just don't care

There is an emptiness I can't control

I'm tired now, just take it all -

It comes in waves; slowly fades 

In silence, I regain my strength 

Pull the glass shards from my face 

And once again, I walk away.

I wrote this song after suffering a severe episode of depression. It is my acknowledgement that although what happened to me isn't my fault, the harmful, self sabotaging ways I choose to deal with it very much are. It's the shame I feel when I am constantly falling in and out of depression - all whilst knowing full well that whiskey will not help me. I'm calling myself out basically.

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Written by Hannah Elizabeth Cassidy

Hannah Elizabeth Cassidy, 26

Foul mouthed alien poet

I write songs and stuff 

A bit weird and a bit shy

Too much whiskey/too much Star Wars