Kev

SO DEPRESSED.

My depression makes me tired,

My anxiety keeps me awake,

I wake from my five minute sleep and look in the mirror,

I don’t recognise the person staring back at me.

So here I am two hours later,

I said I’d be ten minutes.

But does that matters when I don’t even care if I wash my hair?

There’s a smell I can’t bear,

I can’t face the world today,

I have no purpose, no care.

So now that I’m dressed,

I find my mind is still depressed.

I think I will lie back down,

And make peace with my frown.

All I needed to do was pop into town.

It’s been five hours since I looked in the mirror,

That visit to town not a minute closer.

Why am I crying?

I think I’ve blinked my last blink today.

I’ll just fall asleep on this sofa,

And go to town another day.

It’s 8 o’ clock in the morning.

I’m showered and I’ve brushed my teeth.

I think today I may be okay.

Unusual words for me to say.

If I can look in the mirror and tell the guy he’s okay.

If I give him a smile, he always gives one back.

Maybe I’ll go into town today.

A BEER FOR MY MATE

It’s not goodbye my friend,

It’s until we meet again.

I’m sad right now but I’ll be happier then.

So many thoughts in my head

It’s hard to write with this pen.

It’s only a tear,

Our friendship so dear,

Proud of you mate.

So bold and so clear.

Another day, added to my thoughts, so unclear.

Too many friends gone

There’s one thing I fear.

I just need to get used to drinking cold beer.

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I wrote these poems to describe my life living with depression and anxiety. Sometimes I can be out walking in the early hours and depression will take hold of me; I write to help myself and, hopefully, to help others.