Self Acceptance and Why You are Enough

How can we learn to accept ourselves? While still progressing?

While holding ourselves accountable for the good and the bad? BUT..

Without putting ourselves down.

How?

My entire life I struggled with this fine line. How can I be kind to myself when I am harsh with my being? I am the one putting pressure. I am the one accepting the pressure from external elements.

I spent 27 years of my life pushing, fighting through everything. Never knew how to pick battles. I fought them all.

And still, every second, I felt it like a weakness. When I got out. In the world.

So I tuned down. Everything in me. To be soft. To sit in my place (BUT what is my place? And what makes it yours or mine?). To not disturb. To comfort. I tried. At least. I really did.

When all I wanted was to get out and not define anything.

I tried to be what I was not. And I was dying inside with every second.

To realise that, THAT is my freaking power. THAT power is me. Because I care. But I don’t want to show.

Spent years pretending I am careless. And choosing what emotions I want to show.

Only to realise I was afraid. That’s why I built walls.

Walls covered in mud and flowers. And everything nice. And everything ugly.

I am both. And it’s a fight. Because both feel wrong. BUT also right.

Only to realise, there is space for both. And there is nothing wrong with that space.

I am my own flowers and mud. And the flowers grow from mud.

Only to find out, I am them. And they are me.

And we are in this together.